Help...

Dependence, 
Associative only with weakness,
Not strong,
Not independent,
Clingy and unable to perform with the help of another.

Weakness, needy,
Dependence. 

Not using one's own,
Intelligence, strength, love...

Sometimes in life,
You just have to admit defeat,
You just have to say that,
'I cannot do this anymore by myself',
'I give up',
'I surrender'.

Jesus. The one true love.

Love, love, and love.
It is still by far, the most,
Powerful source there is,
Still the most desired and wanted.

We all look for love,
We long to love,
We long at least to be able to,
Which is greater?
To be loved or to love?
Who knows?
But we long to love,
To be loved,
To give and to receive.

Powerful,
Unrelenting,
Now that is love,
Love oh love,
As a force,
Turning the world upside down,
A desire,
That can be daunting.

Love,
Plenty have given love a different name,
But in actual fact,
Love is the most,
The best,
And love oh well,
Jesus is the one true love.

Jer Wei

Lazy man meals

It was about dinner time when we just got home from a wake service of a dear friend's father. I was feeling bit tired as I have been working for 14 hours straight on the day before...and have been getting very little sleep lately. Nevertheless, this shouldn't be an excuse to eat out! So when JW asked me what we will be having for dinner...this is what I answered...lazy man meals.

So our lazy dinner consists of garlic toast (with the leftover french loaf that we have been eating for days), garlic rice with prawns (with some leftover rice I cooked for lunch), bed of greens and watermelon cuts. Easy, fast, clean. I am thankful that JW enjoyed the meal...though he wished that there would be some meat. 

Here's some easy recipes for lazy people like me.

My little infidelity..

Having just arrived in Tawau after 3 long days of urology conference, JW went to my room, perhaps to 'spot check'...He then asked me go up to the room. 

JW: So who have been coming over when I was away in KL? *with a stern voice and dead serious look*

Me: Huh??? (I was totally clueless as I have been hell busy at work and only came back after 10pm every night....until I saw some sparkles from my dressing table) 

JW: So who was the man who left this thing? *still looking dead serious, pointing at a necklace with a diamond studded pendant*

Me: Oops...I think my other lover left this..hehe...

So, this is the little treasure that has been locked in Sunway and has been waiting for my lover to be rescued. LOL (source: Low Jer Wei) 

Happens everytime

5C, the seat in the plane,
Half pass 5 now,
Reaching my destination soon,
Missing my baby,
Getting no rest,
Missing my baby,
Truly missing her.

Going for a conference,
A few days in Sunway,
Thought it'd be nice,
But enjoyment and excitement eludes me,
Missing my baby,
I wish she was here,
Missing my baby,
I wish I am there.

Half pass 5 now,
Reaching my destination,
I miss my baby,
Happens everytime I am away.

A piece written in the plane...

The little surprise

I bet many would want to know what Jer Wei got for my birthday this year. Indeed something special, something witty, something that I like..very much. Ever since he joined surgical, he has been hell busy working. With at least 9 calls a month, I don't get to see him much, only during his off days at home and mind you, I don't even get to see him in the hospital although his ward is just below my floor. 

He has been asking me countless times what I want for my birthday..but I just keep mum. I told him I want a surprise, as usual. I told him I want to feel adored, pursued, and significant...at all times, not just during our courting days. It's kinda difficult for him to give me a surprise, without me knowing, as he is always busy and when he is free, I am often there with him..LOL..

Her.

Just finished eating pizza with some doctors,

Am alone now,
Enjoying the quietness,
Enjoying the peace,
Doing some reading,
And when I look out the window,
I see the clouds up up in the sky,
And i thought of her.
Her, the one I cannot live without,
Her, the person I adore,
Her, the person I want to see happy,
Her, the one I pledge my life and love to.

Loving Jesus

Lately plenty has been going on in my mind,
Finding myself thinking more about the future,
Finding myself worrying more,
Though I hate to admit it,
The future scares the hell out of me,
Worrisome and uncertain.

I thought and I thought,
It overwhelms me,
Figuring what the future holds,
Figuring out how things would be,
Now that's something,
I really miss carefree days.

Loving her.

I love watching her,
I love watching the way she is when she thinks,
I love watching her yawn,
I love watching her interact worth her friends,
I love oh I love this lovely lady.

I love the way she speaks,
I love watching her animate,
I love watching this lady.

It doesn't matter what she is doing,
It doesn't matter that she is saying,
It doesn't really matter doesn't it,
I love watching this lovely lady.

Oh this lovely,
This lovely lady,
Lovely lady love,
Oh this lovely lady that I love,
This is the lovely lady love that I love.

Loving her is loving life itself,
Loving her is loving,
Loving her.

Sincerely,
Jer Wei.

That's Life

Laying down on the floor,
Head on my darling's thigh,

Enjoying myself listening to worship music,
Ah, that's life,
Just relaxing, just spending time with your loved one.
Now life is not meant for strive,
It's not meant for stress,
I'm sure when Daddy God created this world,
He meant for us to have fellowship,
Firstly with Him,
Then with all your loved ones,
Now that's life worth living,
That's life.

Jer Wei

Loving her.

Loving her, always loving her,
Always learning, always improving,
Caring for her, wanting the best for her,
That's the motto, That's the inspiration.

It can be difficult at times,
Nevertheless, when it is,
I find myself loving her,
Oh so loving her,
More and more,
Always more and more.

Sometimes I wish I do not forgive,
But yet, forgiving is natural,
It's the only thing I would do,
Loving her, oh it is about loving her.

She gets on my nerves at times,
She makes me boil,
She speaks rudely and disrespectfully,
But heck,
No ones perfect,
Yet so what,
I still love her,
I love her.

Therefore,
It's loving her,
Always and always,
Giving my best,
Doing my best,
All I wanna do is,
Loving her,
Time and time again,
Always and always.

With all my intentions of loving you,
Jer Wei

Eat.Snap.Shop @ Bangkok (Part 1)

2 dreadful years of housemanship has finally come to an end!! To celebrate this long awaited day, JW and I took a short break and went to Bangkok. This trip was indeed fun, fruitful (with loads of pics and purchases) and has thought me a couple of lessons....

our travel itinerary

I love you Carmen Ng Wai Yin...

It has been the longest time isn't it?
Since my last poem,
Since the last expression of love made words,
Yeah, truly it has been the longest time, 
I for one cannot remember when I last wrote consistently and continously,
When I last made love into poems,
Into small small pieces of notes.

And I ask myself,
Why has it been so long?
Why didn't I write?
Why gives?

Darling says I ain't as romantic anymore,
Complains that all guys are so,
But are they? 
Can all guys be that way?
All hot and saucy in the beginning and then start to fade?
Start to lose stamina?

It's you all along.

Mind distracted a little,

Can't concentrate,

Can't keep a straight mind,

Mind very far away from earth.

Soul searching today,

Looking for a reason,

Looking for meaning,

Soul searching.

Yet she brings me back,

My connection to earth,

My meaning,

My reason.

Yup,

I have a reason to succeed,

It's you,

It's you all along.

Jer Wei...

Marriage

This poem was specially written & dedicated to Harson & Cressida, for their memorable nuptials on 21-7-12. 

Reminiscence (Part 2)

It has been almost 4 months since my last entry in this blog. To those following this blog, pardon me for my short disappearance. I have been busy at work lately and a little caught up with wedding planning, holiday retreats scheduling and my new “partner in crime” (i.e. the new Ipad).

A handful of people have been asking me when is the Part 2 coming up...ok, I shall not keep you all waiting for too long…Here’s the continuation of the story...

He took my place

Was just hanging the clothes,

And life was thought about,

I thought about Jesus,

I thought about all that He has done,

I thought about His sufferings,

His pain,

The price He paid to ensure my destiny,

Oh yes I thought about Him,

Him that loves me with an everlasting love,

And I thought about what I've done for Him,

But thinking about it here and there,

I know that I have done nothing much...

The One that loves me so.

He forgives without withholding, 
He seeks unceasingly, 
He is patient and humble, 
He never forces you to accept Him,
He prefers to give than receive, 
I am His favorite one, 
He loves me so.  


He gently corrects, 
He lovingly awaits, 
He will never give up, 
He will forever pursue, 
He will forever love, 
I am undeservingly loved, 
Undeservingly blessed, 
He doesn't see my sins, 
He blots my mistakes, 
He loves me so. 

Feel, Experience, Touch,

It's a little late at night,

Plenty are asleep,

Some are still awake,

So one begs to question,

Why are that some awake?

Some are working,

Some are studying,

Some just don't want to sleep,

And me?

I'm looking for an opportunity,

Seeking a chance,

Awaiting a moment,

Seizing it, taking hold of it.

Now, that's as easy as ABC.

There are a few things me as a man abhor to be,
Few things I hate to see me be,
Few things that a man must not have.


An unforgiving heart, 
A discontented one,
An unromantic man,
A difficult man,
An impatient man,
A slacky man,
An ungodly man,
A man that has no honor.


Few of those characteristics I mustn't have,
And surely I shan't have them,
Come high or low,
Come narrow or wide,
As far as the east to the west,
If I see myself being one of those,
A quick change I'll do,
A fast repentance I shall make.

A heck of a year.

Time flies when you are enjoying yourself,

When you are having fun,

A look back and it's been a day, a month, 

Now a year.

It's been one year exactly since Carmen and I decided to be committed to each other,

I remember the discussion we had when we said that we'd give it a try,

We both had traumatic experiences with relationships,

Mine's been a few years back,

Her wound fresher,

But at that time,

I knew I was falling for her, and I knew she was too.

I love....you.

I have said it countless times today,

But looking at her, thinking about her, wondering what is she doing,

All makes me wanna say it again and again.

Had never felt this way today,

Had never thought this way,

It baffles me and triffles me,

But it's true that's the way I feel,

I can't help it,

I can't deny it,

It's just the way I feel.

Be taken for granted.

As I lay my head to sleep, 

One thing stays in mind, 

Another brings me back to her, 

And one more makes me long. 

It's been some time since we've met, 

And separation has always been tough, 

It still is, 

For I hate to be apart, 

I dislike being far, 

It discomforts me to not have her near. 
I miss her, I miss her so, I find myself wondering about her, 

Imagining her sound asleep, 

Watching her take her breaths, 

Listening, 

Calm and soothing, peace. 

Reminiscence (part 1)

It has been quite some time since I last posted something on this blog. Many things have happened since my last entry. The most significant of them all is that I am now engaged to the doctor I once hated. Kinda hard to believe, right? I do feel the same at times…LOL.

Reminiscing how this hate-turned-love relationship has started and progressed, I am indeed in awe of my creator’s master plan. Little did I know of His great plans and blessings lined up for me in this little town called Tawau.

Serious matters.

I recently got me deary an engagement ring, which I love seeing on her finger, it rocks, and everytime I see it, I realise how much this lovely lady means to me, it makes me understand the plans that my Maker has for me, I foresee that it's a good plan, a lovely plan, I see a glimpse of heaven knowing that my dearest love is engaged to me.

Now, how does it feel being engaged? I have to say, it does feel great! It's awesome when someone you know sees you and congratulates you, trust me people, you'll feel a sense and a gush of responsibilities flowing down through you. I mean, I'm engaged to another person for God's sake!! I AM ENGAGED!!!!!!! It's a totally new level of commitment all together, and truly I love the sense of being committed and I longed to be committed. It's grand being engaged and committed to the one you plan to live the rest of your life with.

24th of April 2012:Our Engagement date

It's been an eventful 9 days back at home, of which the first 2 days was spent looking around for a diamond ring, the next few deciding, and the next few down in Ipoh town, then came the last 3 days.

Carmen was back here with me in Setia Alam, the difficult part was to get the ring without her knowing, but nonetheless, I'm sure that she had her suspicions, my mouth was sealed though, but she pushed and pushed, but still, it's sealed. 

Promises...

I was talking to me dear Carmen dear today, we were discussing some issues, and one of the issue was about promises.

And I remember I wrote something about my promises to my other half, and that was before I even met her. It goes a little something like this...

The Porky Affair: Fried Nam Yee Pork

This post is definitely shocking to those who knows me well. This is my first entry on pork dish, and I think there’ll be more to this!! Ya, you heard me right....P.O.R.K.

My bf JW is one big pork lover. Hmm, or I should say almost all Klang Chinese..*thanks to their “irresistable” Klang Bak Kut Teh*. At times, he would have severe pork cravings..and bug me to join him for some pork dishes. On the contrary, I am not a porky person and hardly consume pork until I met JW...I guess that’s my biggest compromise in the reationship thus far..

There is a saying; the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. So one way to impress and cheer my man from a long, dull day at work is to cook him his favourite dish..i.e., pork. JW is ever so elated...like a small kid given candy treats...whenever he sees pork on the dining table.

Below is my best pork recipe so far, created accidentally without too much expectation of a great result. This recipe was born out of the need to utilise some leftover pork cutlet and fermented red bean curd (nam yee).

The flavour goes very well; tender and tangy meat with lasting crispiness outside (the crisps last even after 2 hours). I made this dish for my parents few days back (third attempt then), and mum gave thumbs up!

Cheesy light bites

Busy with work? Stomach growling in hunger? Craving for some savoury-cheezy treats? But, it's late at night and all shops are closed. Sound all familiar? Here's an easy, quick fix to your hunger pangs. 

Cheesy, Light Bites
(Yield: 1-2 servings)

JPN, the pester

The National Registry Department (JPN) somehow set my religious status as "Buddha" in my Identification Card (IC) without me realizing until I found out a few weeks back. So, I went to JPN Ipoh just now to change my address & religion status. Wah, to change the religious status alone is of so much hassle. Here's the conversation (translated from Bahasa Melayu): 

Rocky Road Cake

Few months back, I've made this moist, steamed choc cake topped with nuts and dried berries. It was very easy to make, and tasted good. I've shared the recipe on Facebook back then but some of my readers here do not have access to my Facebook account. Hence, here I am sharing it again here in this blog (this time more detailed, and with some minor changes in the ingredients list). 

Missing The Someone - DISCLOSED!

The moody big kiddo

Terribly missing the other half? What would you usually do? 

Here's the post many have been waiting or *ahem* dreading for... A post revealing some juicy pics, funny audio notes, poignant though slightly out-of-tune songs that JW sent to me while I was away...I have been safely keeping them to myself, until today, while reminiscing the stuffs he did to express 'missing the someone', I decided to share these up! Enjoy!! 

The Goodnight Song

Was just about to hit the bed when the phone beeped..There's an incoming audio note from JW through What's app..Here's what he has to say/sing.. :)

She's back in Ipoh, and I'm in Tawau.

It's hard to describe how I feel,
Been a whole twenty four hours since,
Since it happened...


I lost my voice,
I lost my appetite,
I lost my will to sleep,
To awake, to work.

Sweet & Sour Fish; Spinach in Superior Broth

What's the best meal ever? Most of us will say Mummy's own cooked! I could not agree more. Marinated with loads love, seasoned with endless affection and cooked with much patience...definitely nothing beats a warm, wholesome meal at home. 


My mum is definitely a great cook. Remembering those younger days, she always prepare  lunch boxes for me and my siblings to bring over to school...variety, cute, appetizing, wholesome...that sum the lunch boxes she made us. Imagine having nice lunch box filled with home-made burger, colourful fried rice (always the vegetables more than the rice) with nuggets and cucumber as the sides, doughnuts, sandwiches, noodles,..*the list goes on*...and your friends oogling into your lunch box in envy. I am indeed so blessed to have such a mum! 

In appreciation, I prepared dinner for my parents today. Now, that's very unusual as I do not usually step into the kitchen when I'm back home. In less than an hour, I whipped up 2 simple dishes that mum taught me long time ago. Here's the recipes with slight modifications.

Pancakes anyone?

Waking up to a good breakfast will definitely make one's day. What makes a good breakfast then? Nasi lemak? Thosai? Cereal with milk? Hot cocoa with some biscuits? Any of these surely makes a good breakfast...if it's added with a dash of love...Many people often think that making a wholesome breakfast is troublesome. Heck, that's a myth! Here's an easy, no fuss recipe to kick start your day:

EASY, BASIC PANCAKE

(Yield: 2-3 servings)

Blueberry pancakes and smoked sausages with light tartar dressing

If not for her...

Have you ever found someone,
Someone that changes your life,
That life just seems more worth living,
Living more and more in conviction and joy,
Joy that can never be explained,
Like explanations are insufficient,
So much so that it's just redundant to even ask.

My three biggest love...

To some it's a place to get recipes,
To some it's a love blog,
To some a place to chillax,
To some it's a place to run away,
To some it's just for some laughs.


This can be many things to many different people,
But to me, 
This is my place to pen my thoughts to my loved ones,
To let them know that they are not forgotten,
To let them know that they are always in my mind,
To let some know that they are extremely special,
To let some know that they cannot be replaced.

Tick tock, tick tock...

Working as a doctor in Malaysia means you would have to go through rough hours, long hours, boring hours, dreaded hours...You sacrifice your time for people that just do not care about yours, give yourself to people who do not bother, and are polite to people who are rude, demanding and just plain ungrateful.

When Michael Jackson Meets The Shepherd

Yesterday was a long day at work for me. In a short period from 9am till 1pm, I screened through heaps of drug charts, rang up prescribers for pharmacotherapy interventions, checked through the medication trolleys and indents, dispensed medications to patients and answered queries. Hurried back home later to cook some lunch before JW starts work at 3pm and mine at 5pm. In less than 1 1/2 hours, this is what we had for lunch: Shepherd's Pie & Micheal Jackson drink. 

Steamed Blueberry Cheesecake

It's fridge spring cleaning before heading back to Ipoh for 12 days of work-free, enormous pampering at home and of course, Ipoh's delectable, gratifying, heavenly food. Wheee!!

As I was discarding some items from the fridge, I found a bar of Philadelphia® cream cheese and so that prompted me to making another I love-you-but-I-hate-you cheese cake. I have just made a no-bake version for JW's birthday 2 weeks ago,so no-bake is obviously a no this time. My little oven toaster is way too small for the cake tin and it has no temperature control...aiks, who dares to bake delicate cakes using such oven? So the baked version is also out of the list. What's left then? Hmmm....steaming?? Sounds odd..but still I did it.

WOW, to my surprise, the steamed cake turned out as good as the baked versions!! It's as moist but less 'heaty' compared to the baked ones. So guess what JW and I had for lunch that day? 3/4 of the cake at ONE go!! LOL


Okay...As requested by many, herewith is the recipe: 

Happy Easter...

It's the greatest feeling,

Knowing you are loved,

Knowing you have someone to love,

Knowing that there are people that are behind you.

Beef & Spinach Lasagna

JW & I love, love, love lasagna...but sad to say, there's no eatery serving good lasagna here in Tawau....and so I experimented on making one. It turned out perfectly, we ate like gluttons, and my man demanded for more the next week!

Lasagna can be easily made at home (ya, you heard me right, EASY!). Here's the recipe which I'm  proud  to share.

I think, I think, I think I miss you

It's been a year since I last wrote this note, just thought I'd put it here just to show my readers how it all begun. I remember clearly how it all happened: I officially met Carmen on me birthday last year, and somehow she managed to cling on to my mind, like a virus, I was sickly and having her on me mind.

So I just got circumcised!

It's been a long time coming, but finally it's done! I have finally done the big C!

Now, the man speaks...

Hi! Which means Hi! but in English...hehehe...

No Bake Oreo Cheesecake

For my man's birthday, I tried my hands on making this sinful, high-calorie, I-love-you-but-I-hate-you No bake Oreo Cheesecake..and I am proud to say it turned out pretty well.. :) A number of friends came asking me for the recipe and here's it: 

His not so grand birthday

What would you do for your boyfriend's birthday? Surprise him with the most luxurious gift you've ever bought? Kidnap him to a surprise, romantic getaway? or get all greasy in the kitchen to cook him/her a nice, hearty meal? 

Welcome to snippets of our love affair!

HOLA!! (which means welcome in Spanish)