I thought about you.

As I was washing this morning's dishes,

My thoughts went to you preparing me meals,

I was reminded of the times you wash my clothes,

It sent me back to all the times you hung them to dry,

I was brought back to you cleaning and packing after and for me,

You who have done so much for me,

I thought about you.

I remember you encouraging me,

I recall you pushing me on,

I remember you comforting me,

I recall you nursing me,

I thought about you.

I am, 

Until now still overwhelmed by your presence in my life,

I am,

Until now still in unbelief that you are in my life,

I am,

Until now still living in a state of dreams,

I am,

Until now still head over heels in love with you,

I am,

Until now still thinking of you. 

I love you, 

I love you with my heart,

I love you,

I love you with my soul,

I love you,

I love you with my strength,

I love you, 

I love you with all my mind.

I was just washing today's dishes and I thought about you, 

Thank you for being the wife of my dreams.

Always thinking of you,

Always having you in mind,

Always having you in my heart and soul,

Your husband always and forevermore,

Jer Wei

How is married life?

When people ask me how are things, how is married life, I always tell them, 'Great! Wonderful', and like the slogan of McD's, I'm loving it!!! They would then say, 'Of course, it's always wonderful in the beginning, you are still in honeymoon mood'.

A broken record.

I am beginning to sound like a broken record,
Repeating same old same old,
Knowing the things that I say has the same gist,
Knowing that it's just a play of words,
Words that are cleverly arranged.

Like a puzzle that is jumbled up,
Like a needle in a haystack,
Like the sand in the sea,
The stars in the sky,
Waiting to be arranged,
To be found,
Wait for someone to appreciate it's pattern.

Knowing that you are

I love you,
More than ever now,
With each passing day,
Knowing that you are,
The sun in the morning,
The moon at night.

Don't love you the same anymore. 

I was missing you today,

Still am, still do,

I was thinking of you just now,

Still am, still thinking,

I miss you,

I miss you dearly.

Thinking of how it began,

All by a simple note,

Just a simple sentence,

It all started when I realized I miss you,

It happened when I pen those words,

What was it again?

Ah...yes...

It was 'I think, I think, I miss you.'

Sweet memories,

Sweet thoughts,

Those were the days,

And now they are long gone.

So here I am,

Wondering about us,

Thinking about us,

Missing you dearly,

And I thought to myself,

'Do I still miss you like that?'

'Do I still love you like that?'

Your 10th day husband

Love,

Love is seeing all another's imperfections and still saying,

"I love you"

Love is not counting another's wrongs and mistakes,

Love is hearing all the person has to say and then say,

"I still love you"

Love is always hoping that the other party is blessed,

Love means that there will sometimes be heartaches,

Yet knowing in your heart,

She's the one that you have chosen to love.

Love is accepting the whole person,

Love is knowing flaws and problems but saying,

"I love you"

Loving someone ain't easy,

But same goes to another loving you,

Love is not something that you deserve,

Love is undeserved,

Love is given and accepted freely,

Love is invaluable. 

Love is of grace,

It is indeed by grace,

Only by grace that I say this,

"I love you, Carmen Ng Wai Yin"

Loving you always,

Loving you forever more,

Your lover,

Your husband for 10 days and counting,

Sincerely,

Jer Wei

There He is.....He is Jesus

It will never be enough,
There is nothing more that I can do,
It is a lost cause,
I wouldn't be able to repay.

My debt too high,
My crime too deep,
I cannot repay,
All mine good is filthy rags.

It will never be enough,
I have nothing to give,
Broken and poor,
I cannot compensate.

His Word.....The Bible....

How do I put it into perspective this thing called life?

How can I let my words do justice in life?

How should I let my actions perform now?

How would I express my longings?

I am a Christian!

He is the one and only,

He never fairs,

He does not stumble,

He is all lovely and fair,

There is none like Him!

He is the chosen one,

The only man that was born so that He dies,

When God made man, 

He made them immortal,

Man sinned and became mortal,

But when God sent Jesus,

He sent Him knowing He has to be.

I have chosen to love.

This is dedicated to the one I love,

Again it's been a while since I last wrote for you my love,
It has been quite a little some time,
It seems that there was just no time,
No time that we have not been not together. 

Indeed, it has been some time since,
Since I have some time that I can spend on me own,
Time that I was not lethargic,
Time that I was not busy,
Time that I was not too much into something.

Well then,
Let me first say that,
Baby girl, I love you,
Never have been a day that I go on without me knowing this,
Never a day not knowing that I love you.

A little bit better.

Today has been a little different for me,
Today I woke up a little more motivated,
A little more alert,
A little more excited,
More galvanised.

I don't know why, 
There seems to be no reason,
Smiled a little bit more today,
Having fun a little more,
Just overall a little bit better.

Better man when you are around

Days gone by,
Feeling lethargic, not up to standards,
Not tip top, drowsy and unmotivated,
I guess we all go through these days.

Days of a weakened state,
Cannot be explained,
Just not up for it,
Just not wanting to move,
Just want to remain stagnant.

I choose you, I love you.

It's been a long time since I had the chance to write,
Have been looking for an opportunity,
Have been searching for some time,
Yea, it's been a while since words became poems.

This is for the one I love,
This is for my dearest girl,
This is to out a smile on her,
This is to warm her heart,
This is written only for her,
This is written so she knows.

I love you...truly, madly, deeply.

I clearly remember how it all begin,
Our first phone call, though it didn's start and end well,
The cold shoulders we give each other during ward rounds,
Secretly, you caught my eye,
I was looking and staring,
All from the corner of me eye.

Then came the day when I went to church,
Then came the first time we shook hands,
The first time when you sat opposite me,
The first time our eyes met,
It's like you saw through me,
It's like you I was vulnerable before you.

We hit it off from the start,
My feelings for you grew with every passing moment,
Before i knew it, I had fallen for you,
Before I knew it, you were always on my mind,
Before I was ready, I became ready.

And now looking back at the beginning,
On this valentine,
I realise that I so love you,
I know that you are...
Surely you are,
The love of my life.

For you my Carmen dear,
I love you truly, madly, deeply,
Jer Wei

Something terrible has happen to me...sigh...

I thought by now I would be used to it,
I thought that it should have been routine,
I thought I would not feel terrible again,
I thought it will be a breeze, a walk in the park,
I thought all these things and it turns out.....

I am not used to it,
It is still not routine,
Surely not a walk in the park,
Definitely not a breeze,
It is tough,
It is difficult,
It makes me dull.

Never knew it would be still so bad,
The bitter taste I the mouth,
The lousy feeling,
The butterflies in the stomach,
The nauseating feeling,
Such is the state of things.

It is food gone bad,
It is the gall's bitterness,
It's rotten fish,
It's lousy fruits.

I guess I just underestimated it,
Again and again I falter,
I stumble.

It's a terrible thing,
It's an awful thing,
It's an unpleasant event,
It is you darling,
It is you not being close to me,
It is knowing that when I go home, my eyes are not laid upon you,
It is you and you and you, not here.

Dearest Carmen,
I miss you,
I miss you terribly,
I miss you awfully,
I bitterly and sorely miss you.

For you dearie,
For you only,
Jer Wei

Love, kindness, mercy and grace.

It's His love,
It's His kindness,
It's His mercy,
It's His grace.

He loves me so,
His kindness to me is everlasting,
His mercies endure forever,
His grace continually flowing.

He loves me when I am unworthy,
He is kind when I am not,
He is merciful when I stumble and fall,
He is graceful when I sin against Him.

Finally I know,
It is against Him and Him only when I sin,
I answer to Him and to Him only,
But alas, I have with me a counsellor,
An advocate that stands with me.

Oh His mercies and grace forever endures,
His blood justifies me,
His blood clothed me in blood,
Making me white as snow,
There is no spot that He sees,
He sees the blood that was shed.

Yes, even to the thousand generation His mercies endures,
Yes, my sins He does not count against me,
He had made anew the one in me,
He, even He will not remember my sins.

I am forever righteous in His sight,
He is the one and only,
He is the alpha and omega,
He is Aleph and Tav,
He is the beginning and the end,
I love Him...

For the one who died for me,
For my Advocate,
For my Lover,
Jer Wei

I get married... ^^

This will be the year,

The year that is marked by my Lord,

The year of abundance,

Abundance in everything,

Abundance of time,

Abundance of finances,

Abundance of energy,

Abundance of LIFE!

Yea, it is He who works for my good,

Yea, He is the one that has gotten me victory,

Yea, He is, He is, He is the I am...

Help...

Dependence, 
Associative only with weakness,
Not strong,
Not independent,
Clingy and unable to perform with the help of another.

Weakness, needy,
Dependence. 

Not using one's own,
Intelligence, strength, love...

Sometimes in life,
You just have to admit defeat,
You just have to say that,
'I cannot do this anymore by myself',
'I give up',
'I surrender'.

Happens everytime

5C, the seat in the plane,
Half pass 5 now,
Reaching my destination soon,
Missing my baby,
Getting no rest,
Missing my baby,
Truly missing her.

Going for a conference,
A few days in Sunway,
Thought it'd be nice,
But enjoyment and excitement eludes me,
Missing my baby,
I wish she was here,
Missing my baby,
I wish I am there.

Half pass 5 now,
Reaching my destination,
I miss my baby,
Happens everytime I am away.

A piece written in the plane...

The little surprise

I bet many would want to know what Jer Wei got for my birthday this year. Indeed something special, something witty, something that I like..very much. Ever since he joined surgical, he has been hell busy working. With at least 9 calls a month, I don't get to see him much, only during his off days at home and mind you, I don't even get to see him in the hospital although his ward is just below my floor. 

He has been asking me countless times what I want for my birthday..but I just keep mum. I told him I want a surprise, as usual. I told him I want to feel adored, pursued, and significant...at all times, not just during our courting days. It's kinda difficult for him to give me a surprise, without me knowing, as he is always busy and when he is free, I am often there with him..LOL..