I love you...truly, madly, deeply.

I clearly remember how it all begin,
Our first phone call, though it didn's start and end well,
The cold shoulders we give each other during ward rounds,
Secretly, you caught my eye,
I was looking and staring,
All from the corner of me eye.

Then came the day when I went to church,
Then came the first time we shook hands,
The first time when you sat opposite me,
The first time our eyes met,
It's like you saw through me,
It's like you I was vulnerable before you.

We hit it off from the start,
My feelings for you grew with every passing moment,
Before i knew it, I had fallen for you,
Before I knew it, you were always on my mind,
Before I was ready, I became ready.

And now looking back at the beginning,
On this valentine,
I realise that I so love you,
I know that you are...
Surely you are,
The love of my life.

For you my Carmen dear,
I love you truly, madly, deeply,
Jer Wei

Something terrible has happen to me...sigh...

I thought by now I would be used to it,
I thought that it should have been routine,
I thought I would not feel terrible again,
I thought it will be a breeze, a walk in the park,
I thought all these things and it turns out.....

I am not used to it,
It is still not routine,
Surely not a walk in the park,
Definitely not a breeze,
It is tough,
It is difficult,
It makes me dull.

Never knew it would be still so bad,
The bitter taste I the mouth,
The lousy feeling,
The butterflies in the stomach,
The nauseating feeling,
Such is the state of things.

It is food gone bad,
It is the gall's bitterness,
It's rotten fish,
It's lousy fruits.

I guess I just underestimated it,
Again and again I falter,
I stumble.

It's a terrible thing,
It's an awful thing,
It's an unpleasant event,
It is you darling,
It is you not being close to me,
It is knowing that when I go home, my eyes are not laid upon you,
It is you and you and you, not here.

Dearest Carmen,
I miss you,
I miss you terribly,
I miss you awfully,
I bitterly and sorely miss you.

For you dearie,
For you only,
Jer Wei

Love, kindness, mercy and grace.

It's His love,
It's His kindness,
It's His mercy,
It's His grace.

He loves me so,
His kindness to me is everlasting,
His mercies endure forever,
His grace continually flowing.

He loves me when I am unworthy,
He is kind when I am not,
He is merciful when I stumble and fall,
He is graceful when I sin against Him.

Finally I know,
It is against Him and Him only when I sin,
I answer to Him and to Him only,
But alas, I have with me a counsellor,
An advocate that stands with me.

Oh His mercies and grace forever endures,
His blood justifies me,
His blood clothed me in blood,
Making me white as snow,
There is no spot that He sees,
He sees the blood that was shed.

Yes, even to the thousand generation His mercies endures,
Yes, my sins He does not count against me,
He had made anew the one in me,
He, even He will not remember my sins.

I am forever righteous in His sight,
He is the one and only,
He is the alpha and omega,
He is Aleph and Tav,
He is the beginning and the end,
I love Him...

For the one who died for me,
For my Advocate,
For my Lover,
Jer Wei