To be a better you

Just want to be a better man,
Just looking to be a better person,
Just a little bit more,
Just to be a bit more,
A better son,
A better student,
A better Christian,
A better worshipper.

Later I aim to be a better doctor,
Then a better boyfriend,
Later in time I told myself,
A better husband.

Now again,
I find myself wishing I was a better student,
And the cycle goes on,
I still wish to be better in all the things I wish to be before,
Only a new wish this time,
A better father.

Jer Wei

Loving that someone more and more.

Days and moments in life,

Meaning of them,

Finding glee,

Looking for smiles,

Hearing laughter.

Spending it with the one that matters,

Warm heart,

Rosy feelings,

Loving you.

Looking back,

Always you,

Contented and satisfied,

It's having you beside my side.

Truly what they say,

It is about the one you love,

Making sense in this world,

Being with you always.

Truly love you,

Honestly love you,

Deeply love you.

All these hold true,

The words penned before hand,

Loving that someone more and more,

That someone is,

Will always be,

Some one named Carmen Ng Wai Yin.

Thank you for loving me and standing by me,

Yours truly always,

Jer Wei

Happy Birthday, baby Isaac!

Isaac dearest, 

In two days time, it'll be exactly a year since you were born. You have been a blessing, a tremendous joy to us. 

In this one year, it wasn't easy all along. There were moments where mummy felt so drained  and lost...but Jesus has been ever faithful. He sent papa, you and so many others to cheer and help mummy out during those difficult times. Your sweet smiles, infectious laughters and warm hugs have also given me strength to press on. I love it when you throw your arms around me. Please keep it up with you as you grow...but don't simply go hug girls ya?

I may not be the coolest mummy but I will lean on His grace to be a better mum to you. I love you, son. Happy first birthday! Here's a montage dedicated to you. 

One year.

One second,
That's all it takes to fall in love,
A look, a glance, a moment,
That's all it took,
That's all it takes,
One second of time,
Wham bam,
I fell in love with my lovely lady,
And still  constantly falling in love,
A never ending cycle.

My wife and son 

Sleeping beside me they are,

A little boy, my beautiful wife,

Blessedly and blissfully,

Into the sweetest of dreams they go.

Looking at the both of them,

Bring me to heaven,

They mean the world to me,

They make sense in this crazy world,

When everything seems wrong, 

Looking at them both,

Makes things go right.

My sweet boy,

Grow up to be a man,

A man better than your father,

A man after God's own heart,

A man surpassing my life.

My lovely wife,

Thank you for being you,

Thank you for being strong,

Thank you for bringing my boy into this world.

My dearest darling,

For all the wrongs I have done,

Some you know,

Some you don't,

Forgive your husband who is but a man.

My sweetest thing,

I love you dearly,

I adore your very being,

You mean the world to me,

I love you always.

My boy,

Bone of my bones,

Flesh of my flesh,

Remember your mother's bosoms,

For they nurse your small self,

They make you strong and keep you healthy,

There will be days when you are disciplined,

Where you are punished,

But know that you are loved,

That's why we never spare the rod.

Sweet wife of mine,

You are the joy of me life,

You are the good thing God has bestowed upon me,

You are the blessed woman that Jesus loves,

He has done a great service by giving me you,

I thank the Father for allowing me to be in your life.

They are laying beside me, 

I kiss my little boy followed by my lovely wife,

They mean the world to me,

They inspire me,

They encourage me,

They are blessings I do not deserve,

Thank You, Jesus, thank You,

For giving them to me.

Jer Wei

Lo Pak Gou (White Radish Cake) with Thermomix

Pardon me for taking a very long break from the series of wedding preparation blog entries. I left the planner (in which I kept all wedding vendors' info) back in Setia Alam...*sigh*...so my next entry on wedding prep would not be anytime soon..so sorry! 

I'll be talking about my luxury toy, Thermomix (TM) in this entry. Due to the hefty price tag, I have been contemplating to get this amazing kitchen helper for some time...and finally, I bought one not long ago after months of saving. So far, I have been using it much for making smoothies (oh my, I drank so much of them throughout my pregnancy), sorbet,  pastry, sauces, soups, buns, cakes and pizzas. Soon, I'll be exploiting this german maid to make Isaac's baby food. hmm, can't wait! :) 

Anyway, I made Lo Pak Gou (White Radish Cake) with TM last week and it was a success! It is definitely easier and faster with TM...Alright, I am sharing the recipe here. Enjoy! 

Written from the heart of a husband and father.

I feel like crying,
My heart heavy,
Soon I'll be back to work,
Soon I'll be away from my babies,
Tick tock, tick tock,
Few more days and we're separated by the sea.

Tears are forming,
I am so going to miss them,
I miss not being a staircase away,
I miss not being able to hold my babies,
Tick tock, tick tock,
Going back to Sabah.