Time alone.

Time alone,

Just some time alone to rest, 

Enough to do some thinking,

Enough to make some dreams,

Build some castles,

Some time to just be quiet and appreciate calmness.

Time alone,

What's it really but not just sometime to absorb in,

Really, it's just internal monologues most of the time,

Time to just do nothing,

Just time passing,

Just time going by and by.

I love you...truly, madly, deeply.

I clearly remember how it all begin,
Our first phone call, though it didn's start and end well,
The cold shoulders we give each other during ward rounds,
Secretly, you caught my eye,
I was looking and staring,
All from the corner of me eye.

Then came the day when I went to church,
Then came the first time we shook hands,
The first time when you sat opposite me,
The first time our eyes met,
It's like you saw through me,
It's like you I was vulnerable before you.

We hit it off from the start,
My feelings for you grew with every passing moment,
Before i knew it, I had fallen for you,
Before I knew it, you were always on my mind,
Before I was ready, I became ready.

And now looking back at the beginning,
On this valentine,
I realise that I so love you,
I know that you are...
Surely you are,
The love of my life.

For you my Carmen dear,
I love you truly, madly, deeply,
Jer Wei

Something terrible has happen to me...sigh...

I thought by now I would be used to it,
I thought that it should have been routine,
I thought I would not feel terrible again,
I thought it will be a breeze, a walk in the park,
I thought all these things and it turns out.....

I am not used to it,
It is still not routine,
Surely not a walk in the park,
Definitely not a breeze,
It is tough,
It is difficult,
It makes me dull.

Never knew it would be still so bad,
The bitter taste I the mouth,
The lousy feeling,
The butterflies in the stomach,
The nauseating feeling,
Such is the state of things.

It is food gone bad,
It is the gall's bitterness,
It's rotten fish,
It's lousy fruits.

I guess I just underestimated it,
Again and again I falter,
I stumble.

It's a terrible thing,
It's an awful thing,
It's an unpleasant event,
It is you darling,
It is you not being close to me,
It is knowing that when I go home, my eyes are not laid upon you,
It is you and you and you, not here.

Dearest Carmen,
I miss you,
I miss you terribly,
I miss you awfully,
I bitterly and sorely miss you.

For you dearie,
For you only,
Jer Wei

Love, kindness, mercy and grace.

It's His love,
It's His kindness,
It's His mercy,
It's His grace.

He loves me so,
His kindness to me is everlasting,
His mercies endure forever,
His grace continually flowing.

He loves me when I am unworthy,
He is kind when I am not,
He is merciful when I stumble and fall,
He is graceful when I sin against Him.

Finally I know,
It is against Him and Him only when I sin,
I answer to Him and to Him only,
But alas, I have with me a counsellor,
An advocate that stands with me.

Oh His mercies and grace forever endures,
His blood justifies me,
His blood clothed me in blood,
Making me white as snow,
There is no spot that He sees,
He sees the blood that was shed.

Yes, even to the thousand generation His mercies endures,
Yes, my sins He does not count against me,
He had made anew the one in me,
He, even He will not remember my sins.

I am forever righteous in His sight,
He is the one and only,
He is the alpha and omega,
He is Aleph and Tav,
He is the beginning and the end,
I love Him...

For the one who died for me,
For my Advocate,
For my Lover,
Jer Wei

Purpose to spend time with Daddy.

Acts 11:23 ....exhorted them all, that with purpose of heart they would cleave unto the Lord.

Lately, I have been faced with this awareness of spending my time with the Lord, spending time with majestic Daddy, just resting in Him and getting into His word, listening and hearing the words of life. The bible, His inspired word.

I noticed that the more I spend my time with Him, the more I change, my thoughts, my mindset, my drive, my purpose, my will and wants, it's as if I am being reseted into His image, truly His words are life and magical, how it manages to offset the change I do not understand nor comprehend, all I know now is this, that I am truly being transformed into the image of the Son He loves. And I feel all this is effortlessly.

I get married... ^^

This will be the year,

The year that is marked by my Lord,

The year of abundance,

Abundance in everything,

Abundance of time,

Abundance of finances,

Abundance of energy,

Abundance of LIFE!

Yea, it is He who works for my good,

Yea, He is the one that has gotten me victory,

Yea, He is, He is, He is the I am...

Resting in Jesus.

Surely God does not want you to be uncomfortable. His stance is a stance of resting in Him, it is to allow us to claim all the promises of The Father that is already fulfilled in Christ Jesus. He wants us to draw all from Him, he does not want us to strive to live, does not want us to be uncomfortable in life.

He wants us not to be uncomfortable, He wants us to be in the most comfortable zone, which is in His arms of love. Do not for once think that Jesus wants you to be out of your true comfort zone! In fact, He wants you always to be in it!! He leads you by peace, the Holy Spirit leads you by and in peace, so how does that translate to the Father wanting you to be out of your comfort zone? No!! He wants you to be translated to the Kingdom of His Son! And my friends, that is the most comfortable place on earth, the most!! That is your true comfort zone, He love you, and a lover will not want his/her lover to be uncomfortable but on the contrary, to be comfortable! He wants you to be at your true comfort zone, in Christ Jesus.